Sunday, August 15, 2010

ACCUSED


It’s 4:15 pm on the tier, and already a blessed and eventful day. The Star Ledger came and interviewed me for about an hour and a half this morning. I believe the interview went very well, and the writer was understanding and very professional. I’m not sure when the story will come out or even what it will be about, but I stressed the power of God’s grace and the importance to keep moving forward with purpose. I prayed hard before and after the interview and I believe the rest is in
God’s hands. That was the blessed part of the day.
Now the eventful part came into play, when another inmate accused someone of stealing. Needless to say, the entire tier was addressed by the accuser, as he called everyone out “blah, blah, blah…” Well, after a while of ranting and raving and listening to everyone being called a thief, which would include me, since I live on the tier. I stepped up and put him on blast telling him he ought to be specific before he calls everyone “thieves.” It defused the situation, but it was foolish on my part to get involved. Just goes to show you, I still have a long way to go. I fall over and over again, but I’m recognizing it quickly and trying so hard to stay in “my box” completely. Even during that little encounter, I remained cool and collected, but I still felt my “ego” get the best of me. Recognizing our flaws is the first step in changing those traits. Every time I realize a selfish motive comes out of me,, that shows me that I need to remove that defect and get to the next level. I know the only way to get where I want to be is to continually surrender to God. The more challenging my circumstances become, the greater the opportunity to see God more clearly and I need to allow him to raise me to new levels of living. “Never looking back or too far in front of me, the present is a gift and I just wanna BE…..STILL!!. Thank you John Kirk.
~~~~BE STILL AND KNOW~~~

2 comments:

  1. In the Church, one thing I see is an inability among older believers to acknowledge their own foolishness and admit, "I was wrong." I am thankful for your willingness to do so because it is a lifetime of admission and too many of us don't understand that ... so thank you.

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  2. Thanks so much Shirley for your insight and appreciation. I agree with your stance. I also think it is difficult from a cultural standpoint to admit wrong as it is thought of as a weakness. Also, personal pride is another factor that contributes to the inability for people in general to admit wrong.

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